Today I went to lunch with my three guys as usual. When we want to go back that time suddenly they remind me of the time during my industrial training in Protemp Exhibitions. At that time, there are four of us from IT Course and three of them are guys also. At that time I always follow them to lunch for breakfast or we go out together also.
It is actually fine for me to go out with guys since my Uni life but not sure why I am so not used to it now. Maybe I am used to eating with those aunties in my previous company. Hahaha….
This is the first time I feel so weird and so burden to go out for lunch with three guys.
Am I sick? Or they are just not so friendly to let me get involve with them? How I wish I can meet someone who can talk to me in this office but it is so hard.
They are weird guys.
The most miserable day is the day when you are looking forward for something but that thing doesn’t happen.
The most miserable thing is that you are not able to keep your friend staying with you when you didn’t know what you have done wrong.
The most miserable thing is when you think of that person but you do not dare to take the initiative to contact that person.
Today keep thinking of what i wanted to get during my birthday but it is still so far away from me. Dont blame me for being silly, i saw everyone’s photo with a cake that show me the happiest moment they have. I wanted to have some happy moment too.
Happy Happy where are you?
Happening of the day. My whole bottle of water flow inside my bag and flood all my things. Ipod, camera, hp, new wallet, tissue, cosmetics, passport and my umbrella is wet without rain.
Today is the 4th Day i didnt get call from someone. Will tomorrow be another day? Dont think so much, I am just used to the call. Not calling me also i will be able to survive. Gambateh ne!!!
Guys please dont say that ladies are weird, you all are the same. Somemore you treat me like a treasure but sometime u didnt even treat me as a grass.
Sometime we go out together. Sometime i want to go out but u r not free. Hardly got the time i reject going out with you. But sometime i want to give you chance to go out together but you didnt get me. Not sure is delibrately or act stupid. But i know im stupid to do that.
Sometime you tell me how much u miss me and wanna talk to me almost everyday but sometime u can ignore me for a few days.
Sometime really wonder what are you guys treating a lady? A human, a thing, a puppet or anything else that you can think of? You guys are jerk!!! I understand why most of the ladies turn into a Les, probably these are the reason.
Today is the starts of second week for me to work in this new company. It has been a tough week last week as I was assigned to prepare a presentation on 3 softwares. Not only that I have to learn the software on my own I also had to have my own idea of how the presentation is going to be conducted. I got no experience in this kind of presentation at all, senior did give me some advice but there is no use at all.
I prepared and presented to my boss and another colleague on last Saturday. I was shocked when I get to know that the presentation starts at 10.30am. I need to go back to my hometown. The presentation took a long long time because of all the comments given. The presentation finished at 2.30 pm. Not only accepting all the comments during the presentation, I will also need to think of a new presentation material to present to them in this coming Saturday. At the same time, I have two new software to learn… I can say I am a person to multitask but this is too over to my limit. Learning a few software at the same time without a guidance and prepare multimedia artwork for presentation is not my thing because there is no art cell in me.
Because of my poor presentation on Saturday and all the tasks assigned on the same day I was kind of collapse. I feel extremely stress. On Sunday, my friend ask me to go for a movie which I realy wanted to but because i get home late on Saturday so i turn my friend down to stay at home. I have a nap in the afternoon. All that i know is that i cried in my sleep, also in my dream as i think of those works. I woke up because of that dream. After wake up I was still crying. I never got this kind of feeling before. My mum say, this is really bad for me but what can i do? Quit the job?
Lets analyze about the job:
Pro: Able to learn something and got a chance to present to the customer. After long term learning, do not need to stay in the office all the time. Working time is shorter than other company. Start work at 9.00 knock off at 5.30, saturday is off.
Cons: No people to talk to you, to guide you or to share with you. Everything on your own. No people is going to be your friend, they are purely colleagues. Everything in the office is not organised and even pc also not good and full of virus. Laptop dun even have Microsoft Office software. No stationary, no files, no racks and the drawer attached to my table is full of hardware. My bag is to put on the floor. Task are given batch by batch without notice that you are overloaded. Everything have to be learn on your own. I am just a newbie in this company. For the first 3 months, I will need to come back to the office on every Saturday to do presentation without any additional incentives provided.
28.06.2008 is not a good day for me. Although today is my
brother birthday but I encounter with this terrible experience in my life. My
dog was stolen away by other people from my house while me, my brother and
mother is at home at that time. We search everywhere for it but we can’t find
it. Later I get the news of somebody’s grandpa passed away. It is such a sad
day.
29.06.2008 - We are so not used to the house without “Lucky”.
The house is quiet and everyone is kinda sad when “Lucky’s” name is mention. My
mum and I cried when my father mention that she will live better in somebody
else’s house. If this is true we are not going to be so sad but if she stays at
a house that doesn’t know how to take care about her, how? I came back to Singapore
with a sad and worry feeling today but before I get into deep sleep, my mum
called and tell me that Lucky was return back by an Indian guy. This guy claims
that he bought the dog from somebody else because he saw the dog in our house
before. He asked for RM 200.00. Because Lucky is more important, they gave him
the money.
30.06.2008 is my last day working in K.U.T. Diesels Pte Ltd.
I suppose to be very relax to pass over my job to the new guy but he didn’t turn
up. Later I end up audited by our sales manager for ISO internal audit. And she
is like purposely make hard things for me asking me to look for all the
documents that do not exist. Besides, I still need to finish everything on hand
and prepare all the documents for the guy who is coming. Lastly, rush to the
farewell dinner. Like I said my manager went to the dinner, he is the only guy
in the dinner. Some more he is sitting beside me, so sien… Anyway, the food is
nice and really can’t bear to say goodbye to them.
Now, I still got less than two days in this office. I was happy yesterday when I know that my lady boss actually organized a steamboat dinner on my last day of working here to farewell for me. But my feeling is shaken a bit when my lady boss ask my Manager to join. Actually I don’t want him to go because I feel that if he is going sure there will be some restriction. “Bu shuang!”
Anyway, yesterday I was happy when my sales director thought my managing director called me up to stay me but he is wrong. My director never stops me because my lady boss told him not to do so. Then the sales director says, everyone here don’t want me to leave especially him. I laughed and from the bottom of my heart I really need to thank him a lot. He gave me the hope that I have a lot of chances if I carry on working here. He is also the one to let me feel that there are many things that I can do and do them will.
Despite how my manager and sales manager commented on me, I think he is the real mastermind of the business in this company. The way he speaks and the way he acts is so well.
Last but not least, my beloved colleagues, Jocelyn, Aunty Ann, Honey, Sister Chris, Joe, Carol, Qing Qing, Francis Lee, Francis Chua, Ah Chua, Lea, Mr. and Mrs. Koh, thanks for your time and help all along when I am working in this company. I will MISS you all a lot.
Feel like writing a blog so much but don’t really have the main topic in me. People ask me to count down for the end of my first job moving to the second job but I really didn’t think of it. Unfortunately, there is someone who let me feels that she wanted me to leave asap.
The first time she let me has that kind of feeling is when we lose a bid on a project, I try to find the evidence and report to her that we actually makes the enquiry to the supplier she mentioned. In the end the reply to me is, “Never mind since we loss it already, you also going to leave already!” Honestly, I didn’t see the connection of losing the bid with my leaving.
The second time, when we are discussing on a cost sheet that show loss or profit of a project, she spotted something wrong if the distribution of cost which me and her cant actually do anything because that project belongs to my manager. She said this to me, “Since you are leaving, you go and tell him la.”
Why are all these phrases pointing towards me? Did she mean anything in her words? She tries to ask me leave earlier? She is the sales manager that I always mentioned who treat me badly. I think she is the reason of all the people who left. She is too much sometime.
Continuing from my previous blog that I mentioned I went for my second interview. I passed the interview and actually they decided to offer me the job. Before I sign the appointment letter with them, I asked a lot of questions and bargain but the salary is the no bargain item. Anyway, to give myself a new opportunity, I decided to resign my current job and go for the new one. Although I am not confident to take the job but I am willing to challenge this job. I will leave my current office end of this month, go for training in the new company on 3rd and 4th July and start work officially on 14th July 2008.
For those who are still looking for job, GAMBATEH o!!!
For those who got a job, GOOD LUCK and ALL THE BEST!!!
Today is Friday!!! It has been a sad week after all since I got the call for second interview in the multimedia company. I think I lost a lot of things because of my sadness. I lost a friend who will talk to me everyday, concern about how I feel. I think because of my sadness, I am bad tempered and like what my friend says, I am small gas and therefore makes my friend doesn’t feel like talking to me and terminate our conversation. To my friend, work is always the most important thing but I hope I am important also. I doubt I will be as important as my friend’s work. Haha… Maybe there is someone more important than this normal friend (me). Anyway, just hope that everything goes well especially my second interview today. Drive carefully either car or motor that I don’t like but somebody else likes. Take care!!
Gambateh and Good luck to me and Fion!!! 
