Today I went to lunch with my three guys as usual. When we want to go back that time suddenly they remind me of the time during my industrial training in Protemp Exhibitions. At that time, there are four of us from IT Course and three of them are guys also. At that time I always follow them to lunch for breakfast or we go out together also.
It is actually fine for me to go out with guys since my Uni life but not sure why I am so not used to it now. Maybe I am used to eating with those aunties in my previous company. Hahaha….
This is the first time I feel so weird and so burden to go out for lunch with three guys.
Am I sick? Or they are just not so friendly to let me get involve with them? How I wish I can meet someone who can talk to me in this office but it is so hard.
They are weird guys.
The most miserable day is the day when you are looking forward for something but that thing doesn’t happen.
The most miserable thing is that you are not able to keep your friend staying with you when you didn’t know what you have done wrong.
The most miserable thing is when you think of that person but you do not dare to take the initiative to contact that person.
Today keep thinking of what i wanted to get during my birthday but it is still so far away from me. Dont blame me for being silly, i saw everyone’s photo with a cake that show me the happiest moment they have. I wanted to have some happy moment too.
Happy Happy where are you?
Happening of the day. My whole bottle of water flow inside my bag and flood all my things. Ipod, camera, hp, new wallet, tissue, cosmetics, passport and my umbrella is wet without rain.
Today is the 4th Day i didnt get call from someone. Will tomorrow be another day? Dont think so much, I am just used to the call. Not calling me also i will be able to survive. Gambateh ne!!!
Guys please dont say that ladies are weird, you all are the same. Somemore you treat me like a treasure but sometime u didnt even treat me as a grass.
Sometime we go out together. Sometime i want to go out but u r not free. Hardly got the time i reject going out with you. But sometime i want to give you chance to go out together but you didnt get me. Not sure is delibrately or act stupid. But i know im stupid to do that.
Sometime you tell me how much u miss me and wanna talk to me almost everyday but sometime u can ignore me for a few days.
Sometime really wonder what are you guys treating a lady? A human, a thing, a puppet or anything else that you can think of? You guys are jerk!!! I understand why most of the ladies turn into a Les, probably these are the reason.
Today is the starts of second week for me to work in this new company. It has been a tough week last week as I was assigned to prepare a presentation on 3 softwares. Not only that I have to learn the software on my own I also had to have my own idea of how the presentation is going to be conducted. I got no experience in this kind of presentation at all, senior did give me some advice but there is no use at all.
I prepared and presented to my boss and another colleague on last Saturday. I was shocked when I get to know that the presentation starts at 10.30am. I need to go back to my hometown. The presentation took a long long time because of all the comments given. The presentation finished at 2.30 pm. Not only accepting all the comments during the presentation, I will also need to think of a new presentation material to present to them in this coming Saturday. At the same time, I have two new software to learn… I can say I am a person to multitask but this is too over to my limit. Learning a few software at the same time without a guidance and prepare multimedia artwork for presentation is not my thing because there is no art cell in me.
Because of my poor presentation on Saturday and all the tasks assigned on the same day I was kind of collapse. I feel extremely stress. On Sunday, my friend ask me to go for a movie which I realy wanted to but because i get home late on Saturday so i turn my friend down to stay at home. I have a nap in the afternoon. All that i know is that i cried in my sleep, also in my dream as i think of those works. I woke up because of that dream. After wake up I was still crying. I never got this kind of feeling before. My mum say, this is really bad for me but what can i do? Quit the job?
Lets analyze about the job:
Pro: Able to learn something and got a chance to present to the customer. After long term learning, do not need to stay in the office all the time. Working time is shorter than other company. Start work at 9.00 knock off at 5.30, saturday is off.
Cons: No people to talk to you, to guide you or to share with you. Everything on your own. No people is going to be your friend, they are purely colleagues. Everything in the office is not organised and even pc also not good and full of virus. Laptop dun even have Microsoft Office software. No stationary, no files, no racks and the drawer attached to my table is full of hardware. My bag is to put on the floor. Task are given batch by batch without notice that you are overloaded. Everything have to be learn on your own. I am just a newbie in this company. For the first 3 months, I will need to come back to the office on every Saturday to do presentation without any additional incentives provided.
