28.06.2008 is not a good day for me. Although today is my
brother birthday but I encounter with this terrible experience in my life. My
dog was stolen away by other people from my house while me, my brother and
mother is at home at that time. We search everywhere for it but we can’t find
it. Later I get the news of somebody’s grandpa passed away. It is such a sad
day.
29.06.2008 - We are so not used to the house without “Lucky”.
The house is quiet and everyone is kinda sad when “Lucky’s” name is mention. My
mum and I cried when my father mention that she will live better in somebody
else’s house. If this is true we are not going to be so sad but if she stays at
a house that doesn’t know how to take care about her, how? I came back to Singapore
with a sad and worry feeling today but before I get into deep sleep, my mum
called and tell me that Lucky was return back by an Indian guy. This guy claims
that he bought the dog from somebody else because he saw the dog in our house
before. He asked for RM 200.00. Because Lucky is more important, they gave him
the money.
30.06.2008 is my last day working in K.U.T. Diesels Pte Ltd.
I suppose to be very relax to pass over my job to the new guy but he didn’t turn
up. Later I end up audited by our sales manager for ISO internal audit. And she
is like purposely make hard things for me asking me to look for all the
documents that do not exist. Besides, I still need to finish everything on hand
and prepare all the documents for the guy who is coming. Lastly, rush to the
farewell dinner. Like I said my manager went to the dinner, he is the only guy
in the dinner. Some more he is sitting beside me, so sien… Anyway, the food is
nice and really can’t bear to say goodbye to them.
Now, I still got less than two days in this office. I was happy yesterday when I know that my lady boss actually organized a steamboat dinner on my last day of working here to farewell for me. But my feeling is shaken a bit when my lady boss ask my Manager to join. Actually I don’t want him to go because I feel that if he is going sure there will be some restriction. “Bu shuang!”
Anyway, yesterday I was happy when my sales director thought my managing director called me up to stay me but he is wrong. My director never stops me because my lady boss told him not to do so. Then the sales director says, everyone here don’t want me to leave especially him. I laughed and from the bottom of my heart I really need to thank him a lot. He gave me the hope that I have a lot of chances if I carry on working here. He is also the one to let me feel that there are many things that I can do and do them will.
Despite how my manager and sales manager commented on me, I think he is the real mastermind of the business in this company. The way he speaks and the way he acts is so well.
Last but not least, my beloved colleagues, Jocelyn, Aunty Ann, Honey, Sister Chris, Joe, Carol, Qing Qing, Francis Lee, Francis Chua, Ah Chua, Lea, Mr. and Mrs. Koh, thanks for your time and help all along when I am working in this company. I will MISS you all a lot.
Feel like writing a blog so much but don’t really have the main topic in me. People ask me to count down for the end of my first job moving to the second job but I really didn’t think of it. Unfortunately, there is someone who let me feels that she wanted me to leave asap.
The first time she let me has that kind of feeling is when we lose a bid on a project, I try to find the evidence and report to her that we actually makes the enquiry to the supplier she mentioned. In the end the reply to me is, “Never mind since we loss it already, you also going to leave already!” Honestly, I didn’t see the connection of losing the bid with my leaving.
The second time, when we are discussing on a cost sheet that show loss or profit of a project, she spotted something wrong if the distribution of cost which me and her cant actually do anything because that project belongs to my manager. She said this to me, “Since you are leaving, you go and tell him la.”
Why are all these phrases pointing towards me? Did she mean anything in her words? She tries to ask me leave earlier? She is the sales manager that I always mentioned who treat me badly. I think she is the reason of all the people who left. She is too much sometime.
Continuing from my previous blog that I mentioned I went for my second interview. I passed the interview and actually they decided to offer me the job. Before I sign the appointment letter with them, I asked a lot of questions and bargain but the salary is the no bargain item. Anyway, to give myself a new opportunity, I decided to resign my current job and go for the new one. Although I am not confident to take the job but I am willing to challenge this job. I will leave my current office end of this month, go for training in the new company on 3rd and 4th July and start work officially on 14th July 2008.
For those who are still looking for job, GAMBATEH o!!!
For those who got a job, GOOD LUCK and ALL THE BEST!!!
Today is Friday!!! It has been a sad week after all since I got the call for second interview in the multimedia company. I think I lost a lot of things because of my sadness. I lost a friend who will talk to me everyday, concern about how I feel. I think because of my sadness, I am bad tempered and like what my friend says, I am small gas and therefore makes my friend doesn’t feel like talking to me and terminate our conversation. To my friend, work is always the most important thing but I hope I am important also. I doubt I will be as important as my friend’s work. Haha… Maybe there is someone more important than this normal friend (me). Anyway, just hope that everything goes well especially my second interview today. Drive carefully either car or motor that I don’t like but somebody else likes. Take care!!
Gambateh and Good luck to me and Fion!!! 
Treat everyday as the last day in our life. I have been using this phrase very often recently. At first when I heard this from a friend, I think this is such a pessimistic thinking. But after the earth quake at Sze Chuan, I totally agree with this phrase. To believe in this phrase is to let ourselves fully utilize every day, hours, minutes and seconds in our life. This is to avoid us from regret on those thing that we want to do but not able to do it in time before we leave this world.
What do you think when u hear this phrase?
A. Positive: To spend your day and your time to the fullest.
B. Negative: Treat it like no future in your life.
I was invited for second interview in the multimedia company. Is this a good news or a bad news?
Good news: I get an opportunity in the IT field that I studied for four years in my University.
Bad news: I don’t have confident to do it well. They ask me to bring along any multimedia artwork that I have done before but I don’t have any. I bullshit during the interview that I did it before.
I talked to Max about this and he actually told me a lot of things that I can bring along for the interview but the things he mention is either not with me or it is too ugly to show to others. He says in the end, “Then you have to gambateh lor!” These words make me feel I am so useless. That is why I am so BlueS yesterday.
Later when I talked to SC, his concern is this job is also not that suitable for me. He thinks that PR works suits me but I was thinking of how to compare with those who had their degree cert in PR?
One whole day I thought of so many things that make me feel total lost of confidence in me. I felt that I am so useless. Although how my dad praises me in front of others, how my mother is proud of this daughter but I don’t feel any capabilities in me. 
After being so sad, I just feel like going to shop and get something that I like. I specially went to Suntec to get the wallet that I finally found (I like it so much). But in the end I didn’t buy. I saw the shoes and skirt I like but I didn’t buy. I feel useless again. I can afford everything but why I can’t buy something that I like to make myself happy?
Mr. Yap says is good for me to know how to control myself from simply buying things. SC says, I am not a centipede so I don’t have to have so many pairs of shoes. SC also says, people will not judge me of how many pairs of shoes I have or what clothes I wear but he doesn’t know that, I gain my confident from the things that I can wear them nicely.
